The · Meekaverse

Didnt that sound grossly pretty. So life is okay. I havent broken anything and I'm learning more stuff. I have decided that learning is my addiction of choice with a few other things tossed in. Soon I shall be doing the things that I like doing or I think will like doing and it will be for the next six years which can be considered way cool. Well the travel part that is. I've always been curious about how electronics work and why I understand how most of them work but not the nitty gritty stuff that places the speaker into true adoration and geek mode.
You know math has never really been my friend but I am going toturn it into my friend. So someday soon I can wax on and on about the various formulas of what is what and what it does what it does.

FYI current reading list

LINUX for Dummies
Dungeon and Dragons for Dummies
Secret Socities and Conspiracy Theroies for Dummies

and yes my spell skills havent improved allthat much. ;p

And so I have seven four days to complete my project and back to work I need to go.

Current Location:	on the desk
Current Mood:	hopeful
Current Music:	airplanes

Okay I have a plan I have fourteen days to complete it in. Well one of many plans that I have created for the year. It will be a better year than last year even if I have to take a hammer and a nail and beat it into to submission. No pain no gain right. So thus I shall begin and I hope this post does find of those readers who still read this in good health. I myself am doing well.

These are the things I want for this year

a apartment that is paid for a year with the monthly cost being between 1222 to 14000 a month.
a car that is half paid for and in good condition that I can drive from oneside of the coutnry to the other.
several published short stories and or plays.
a PS3 with the game Heavenly Sword and Kingdom Hearts 2

If you noticed those things are repeative to some of the other lists I have made over time here in my LJ but you know, I am going to do it. Thanks for allof your support.

Lotsa Love

Meeka

Current Location:	Texas
Current Mood:	excited
Current Music:	WiCKED soundtrack "Dancing through life"

Lotsa Love

Meeka

I think I will heart this show.

why becuase of the lines.

"Great way to do the Job interview with the new guy."

"The kid sucks brains....not that I'm being judgmental."

But I watched for the name it brought back memories. Ah the joys of Sanctuary. ;-p

Well wish me luck and say a couple of prayers I'm going to go ahead and take the leap. I'll let you know how it turns out. Also the mom is having knee replacement surgery for both but not at the same time. The first one takes place this month. So prayers and good vibes for her please.

and now random story bit off the top of my head without editing:

"Katherine stood in the middle of the side walk staring up at the sky. The wind was howling and dirt and other bits of trash and such swirled around her. Like a hurricane or tornado she stood in the middle, the eye of the storm. Ever few mintues a flash and flare of lighting would streak across the sky and thunder boomed." Gretchen paused in her reading to look over at her friend seated on the edge of her bed nervously biting her thumbnail as she listen.

Gretchen sighed and held the small stacks while watching her friend. "Edi, sweetheart, you really want me to tell you what I think of this?"

Edith Masrick, writer hopeful nodded her head her eyes wide.

"It sucks."

to be continued...~grins~

Current Mood:

rejuvenated

The thing is I know I a larger number of things about military equipment that I never really expected to know unless I was actually joining but right now I'm debating on whether I was to go active duty or reserves. The finding a job in normal america that is not retail seems to be a problem for me. I mean really do I look like I am an insurance agent to you?

I'm also debating on going back to being a lovely indepentant sales rep for AVON again. I probably will do better but it is something I'm familiar with. I wonder if I can get my resume on a buisness card and pass those out?

I'm think at this moment I'm not going to make the shadmoor event in october. That plane ticket is so going to kill my pocket. And yeah. Bloody expensive, gas is just such a drama moneky.

On a more creative note my grandmother has gotten me into scrapbooking. Mostly family photos and things but I should have my first one finished in a few days. And the second one wont be too far behind it, at least once I get another scrapbook for it.

I pretty much have spent my time working, getting up at 5 am ride with Dad to work taking a nap til 815ish and then going to work from 9am to 7pm. Then back home again. Eat and sleep and then do it again. For three to four days out the week the others I'm at the house surfing the internet and making attempts to do sit ups and push up and run up and down the stairs.

Ever so often toss in a bit of writing, reading and computer gaming and you have me life in a nutshell. So I thought I would let you all know what was up.

For those interested in what is my favorite knife to play with it's a KA-BAR 02-5051. Its a short Ka-Bar about a five inch blade and wooden handle. Its pretty and sharp.

Current Location:	undisclosed
Current Mood:	awake
Current Music:	Helsing Ruins SdTK

While on this quest I also discovered and was slapped in the face by my continous whining and the irony of it all. I'm semi still whining about the same things so now I need to actually do something about them. And good lord the quizzes I never realized how many quizzes i posted in my LJ when I first started. And boy do I ever change my mind I remain consistant in my inconsistancy.

Forgive me those of you who have had to suffer through this and still have remained and or continued to call me friend.

Current Location:	packing
Current Mood:	chipper
Current Music:	chatpings

Your result for The Supervillain Archetype Test...

The Professional

Cool, Levelheaded, Lethal

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Current Location:	where else on the computer silly goose
Current Mood:	amused
Current Music:	Brandy Never Say Never CD

**chants** I'm going to a D*Con! woot! booyah! I might be in debtwith my dad for a bit I will get to see people I havent seen in a year to six months. Be prepared for me in all my off the wall glory I am demanding we do lunch and sweets (ie ice cream but I warn you hyperness will probably happen lately the sweetest things I have had have been a G2 by gatorade)
I want to play uno, and wander the panels and stare at famous people but not talk to any of them, who knows maybe I will.

I want to friendly stalk writers and ask them questions.

I would love to have one of those mocha mint expresso frozen drink thingies... but I think that was an AWA special.

Speaking of AWA as of today its a no go. The manager has asked for me to work that weekend unless they open the other store and hire another part time person. Back to the weekend.

I think I will be flying in friday morning and so I need to look back into trasportation from airport to the hotels, unless some of my lovely dear sweet alt peoples would care to play tour guide (montary payback might be possible depends on if my paycheck is deposited correctly)

I know my flight out is before 2pm on monday so....
anyway let me know if anyone is avaible for anything.

Current Location:	thrilled land
Current Mood:	ecstatic
Current Music:	Sims2 jazz

Thank you Anita Baker

Anyway I know I probably could have taken a better approach to explaining but you know they say honest is the best policy.  That doesnt mean that still dont feel that way.  Just the intensity of the sentiment has dropped a little and leveled out to normal.  Some might even say its signs of withdrawl.   I realized today i havent had any chocolate in over a month.  it might have started out as result of no access but when i did have access I felt no urge to buy.  Yay go me.

I've decide I'm going to lose five pounds and then I will reach smexy weight status thank you life for not making it worse on that front.    For a moment there I had cohesion and flow with my writing and then it slowly tappered away.   A friend told me maybe I'm trying to force it too much which results in the mess that I normally have.  Well the friend didnt call it a mess or give implications of that, this is just my interpretation of it.  Which i can do since it is my journal naaaahh.

N e way I am  good, life is good (at least for the moment)

Current Location:	texas
Current Mood:	contemplative
Current Music:	none

You mock me by waving things in front of my face that I am drawn to either read, buy or participate in and require me to have money to do it.  Its getting old, stop it, I'm begging you here please.  

I know bargaining won't work, that will just become an presentation on how stupid I can make myself look.   You present me with people who give advice which i tend to listen to because they have more expereince than i do so why not avoid those pitfalls and cliffs they had to fall through and progress quickly.  What a load of  kafillka fish.

You say plan ahead, be prepared and when I do squat happens. When I need less stress, I get more.  When I need a job (and even when i dont need a job) you yell retail. I say I need a car, you say dude  I let you get rollerblades.  I say okay, what about a bike?  You respond with God gave you two feet you can use those.  Life I do love you honest I do but sometimes I would like to stab you in the pinkie toe with a rust butter knife and laugh evilily while you choke on a chiken nugget.  

I am so aggitated at the necessities that I no longer can find enjoyment in the simple fun things that entertain me.  I've reached the point where I dont want to go in a bookstore, or a department store because the time I spend wandering around looking I could have spent hunting for a job or editing my resume for someone to look at and then say eh and toss it in the trash.

Fear of rejection is no longer part of me, its become my goal to see how many times it can happen, and I wonder does it spread like a cancer to the other parts of life that I've neglected in my, what seems to be doom, dream to find a job.  

People keep telling me that most people don't ever actaully go into the field in which they get their degrees in.  You know that's a backhand slap to the back of the head.  Some of you were the same one saying go to school for something you enjoy, because if you do something you enjoy.  Well that bit of the advice has really been kicking me in the face...repeatedly.

If you haven't figured it out by now I'm frustrated, irritated and tossing in the towel.  I know my talents are average, I accept that but in life average gets the stupid stick every time.

Those of you who read this thanks for reading, I take heart that someone is reading something I wrote.  I  mean its not like I've published anything else noteworthy to make me be noticed.

And one last thing Life, six years of additional education and I've learned I  could stayed home and just taken over the world with retail.

Current Location:	texas
Current Mood:	exhausted
Current Music:	none